Hi to everybody.
A couple of months ago I left WC forever. Ultimately this was pointless, as I still used the arcade feature even when not posting. Ive decided I want to be part of the WC community, and that Im sorry.
Im going to write a novelesc poste here, and I know no one should really care, and I shouldnt expect anyone to, but Im going to write it, so its out there and I can mayber return to my old posting self.
A few months ago I made a stupid statement. I claimed it was unfair girls get free VIP features. This was stupid because the girls who poste here are incredibly insightful and popular, yet I looked past all that. Ultimately I acted like a 12 year old.
A few days later I went to see a live WWE show in Australia. It was my first live show after years of watching on TV. Sitting there in the crowd I felt embaressed. A pro wrestling community is something Ive found can only be obtained online. As a rusult only one of my friends was interested in going, but on the day of the show, after already bought the tickets he had a court case. So being 17, and not wanting to go to a show alone, and having no other friends even a little interested, I decided to take my Dad, who told me for years pro wrestling is a joke, but was better than going alone.
So their I sat in a sea of seven year olds, with one screaming little kid behing me cursing the heels and cheering the faces all night. I finally saw pro wrestling not through a TV, from close up shots and moving angles, just from an objective 50 metres away. I was shocked to see for the first time how incredible fake it looked. Of course anyone over the age of 9 can work out wrestling isn't real, and I never treat it as anything but a buisness and theatre, but I never realised how stupid it looked without the camera angles and close ups. So I did the only thing I could do. I told my Dad he was right, swoar never to watch wrestling again, and refused to rejoin WC and be drawn back to wrestiling, until now.
Over the last months Ive come to realise something. Up close in the flesh pro wrestling to me personally looked stupid. Yet I still had a desire to know what was happening, one I couldnt explain until today. I realised two things.
The first is that I missed the WC and wider internet community. WC is a place you can talk and discuss opinions on wrestling, mma, music etc with interesting diverse cool people who without wrestling I would never have known of. I realised I love fantasy booking wwe and making crative idea threads on here. I love trashing shit shows and reading others do it also. I dont care if wrestling isnt real, that there were little kids at that show, and that my real life friends hate it, because I had online that like/ love it. And these friends aren't the sea of children in the arena, they are young adults, adults, mothers and fathers of children themselves with opinions on this continuing drama story we know as wrestling.
My second realisation came watching Summer Slam today. I fell to temptation and watched TLC. Then it hit me. When Jeff Hardy flipped of that 20 foot ladder all the embaressment of my first live house show went away. I remembered what wowed me in the first place. I dont mean wrestlers should risk themselves like that, but I remembered they do, I remembered Foley coming of the Cell at KOTR 1998, or Shane Mcmahons dives from the raters, Edges face dive through a flaming table at Mania 22, Abysses dedication to his character, punching tacks at house shows. I remebered the risks that the performas take, something I had forgotten until now.
So I no longer care about that night, because I dont watch wrestling live, I watch it on TV, with camera angles and zoom ins. I love the stories, the progretion, the creative decisions, the political movements I read about behind the scenes, the speculation, the ocational surprises, and mostly the people I talk to about it.
I may not be thr overly frequent wrestling viewer I was, and may miss a show or two in a week, but I want to come back to this commuinity. I want to say Im sorry for being an idiot, for being a dick and for being influenced by that show and my stupidid tanterum.
I ask for a favour of this commuity, actually three. To forgive me. To answer me a question no one else can, is wrestling faker and goofyer looking at hose shows than live TV events?, and to leave me wall posts at some stage if you forgive me, so the last posts "I thought you were leaving forever" can be pushed of the screen, and I can forget about it.
Ive missed you guys. Although you may not have liked me I liked all of you. I miss Tommys great ideas, what DD does for the site, PS humor, the way Lord Steventon can write something Id laugh about in my day to day life, the effort the mods go through, Raizrs and James and all other great discussionists.
In real life I have a lot of friends. But non that really shared my interest of wrestling. WC gave me that, and I hope it will still do so.
ps. an extra sorry for DD. Its your site, and I should have just respected that.
Thank you.
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